Dear Diary: Why I need to bring shampoo to the gym.

I joined a gym.

I hired a trainer.

They swiped my card.

It's settled.

I am doing this.

I am not dieting....I am getting strong.

{{I am doing this for many different reasons and a little vomit won't stop me.}}

Last week was my first time working with a trainer and it ended horribly embarrassing.  Trainer pushed me hard.  I was doing exercises that I never thought I would be able to do.  60 crunches, 60 squats, 60 lunges, 60 flying in the air things and 60 pull ups/downs while hanging.  I was dripping with sweat and feeling pretty good.  We were finished!!! I did it!!! It was time to stretch and shower up. 

I headed towards the stretching bench with trainer by my side and then it hit me....my stomach was turning.  I felt a little sick.  I turned to trainer and said "I feel sick to my tummy" - he said "get to the bathroom!"  I started to march off....fully confident that I would make it to the porcelain bowl.  Then it hit hard....and before I knew it, in the middle of the gym, I lost my breakfast all over my ponytails, my shirt, my notebook, my headphones and the floor.  It was awful.  Poor trainer looked so shocked and I just wanted to cry.  I began laughing and laughed all the way home. Me and working out were not off to a good start.

The next day, I was scheduled to do cardio at the gym.  UGH - the thought of going back was killing me.  I was praying that the girl who helped clean up the mess would not be working.  I was hoping that she would not remember me.  Who was I kidding?! Who would forget the redhead who lost her breakfast the DAY BEFORE.  I kept coming up with reasons why I didn't need to go.

And then I thought about who I am at the core.  I'm a girl who gets back on the horse.  I'm a girl who never gave a damn about what others thought about me as long as I am happy with me.  I'm a girl who doesn't back down over a little "lost breakfast." I'm a girl who can laugh at my most embarrassing moments. I'm a girl who needs to get stronger.  Yep, I'm a girl who needs to get her tush to the gym and that's what I did.

Today, was day two with my trainer and thankfully I didn't get sick.  Every time I winced, trainer would ask if I was going to be ok???  It was like we were playing a game of "will-she....will-she-not-get-sick?"  I did feel a little twisty-tummy after the work-out but I worked through it and now feel better, stronger and pretty dang good!

My Reasons.....

1. I need to get stronger.  Soon we will have a little one and chances are he/she might be a little bigger than a newborn and this mama's upper arm strength just sucks.  It is pathetic and has to change.

2. I want to eat and drink what I want and at age 42 that means balance and lifestyle alterations. I need more education about working out and I want to make room for fitness in my life.

3. I have a big project in January and I want to look my best for it.  I owe it to myself and to the people who believe in and are investing in us.

4. I want to get involved in classes for fun and friendship and to take my mind off of work.

5. I want to push myself and challenge myself in new ways.

Where I am today.......

Joined Crunch Burbank - August 24th
Weight 145 (I don't have a goal weight...looking for lifestyle change)
First day with Trainer - August 30th (Zocai sp? - he is awesome)
Second day with Trainer - September 4th
Learned that I need to add more protein to my diet - especially after working out.
Laundry, laundry and more laundry.  Working out is messy and stinky.

XOXOXO
Cathie