It is one week since my dear father-in-law passed away and I am left feeling numb and overwhelmed. The wake/prayer service was overwhelming with all the love and support from family and friends. The funeral and interment was everything a family could hope for and truly honored Hrant. At the lunch, the toasts and food were plentiful. Our eyes have dried of tears as our hearts begin to heal.
And now - we are picking up the pieces where our lives stopped as Hrant's did.
Last night, I picked up my notebook in an attempt to try to regain some sense of normalcy and figure out what to do next. As I flipped back the 10 pages of funeral planning notes, I realized that I must turn back in order to move forward.
Turning Back the Pages to go Forward
Notes left unfinished.
Ideas holding still.
Will I remember where I left off?
Projects in half progress.
Projects to be sweetened and completed.
Projects Hrant will only see from the sky.
As I move forward,
I will move forward with force and gusty wind.
I will pick up where I left off
with fresh vision and fresh creativity.
I will begin.
Notes left unfinished.
Ideas holding still.
Will I remember where I left off?
Projects in half progress.
Projects to be sweetened and completed.
Projects Hrant will only see from the sky.
As I move forward,
I will move forward with force and gusty wind.
I will pick up where I left off
with fresh vision and fresh creativity.
I will begin.
very touching! sending strength & wishing you peace!
ReplyDeleteIt doesn't seem like a week does it? I am glad that you are picking up and moving forward. Your poem is lovely. I'm sending you another big hug and good thoughts. Marj
ReplyDeleteBig hugs to you and Eddie. Love this sad pic, but what a lovely resting place for Hrant. Give Eddie and extra hug for me.
ReplyDeletexox,
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May moments and memories of beautiful times whisper their way into your heart and bring you peace.
ReplyDeleteHe will always be with you in your heart and memory.
Sending big hugs your way from Texas. This is the part when your mind is kind of fuzzy and slow as it tries to heal up. Just trust that it comes back eventually.
ReplyDeleteWishing you both an gentle healing process.
Cassie
Beautiful words!! Sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteYou never get over it, time makes it alittle better. My deepest sympathies to you and your husband.
ReplyDeleteDonna H>
sometimes in the strangest of moments, you will sense his touch, his voice, his smell...all knowing that he will live forever in your hearts...my prayer for strength and peace to you and your family
ReplyDeleteCathie..my thoughts and prayers will continue for you, your hubby, family and friends during the next few months. It's so hard to loose someone..to let go...to move forward. Together you can do it and with all the wonderful support you have I know that things will come back to a routine. Time does heal...memories will keep him close.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Regi
Love this park too. Beautiful place to be and a great photo or your hubby. Take care of him girl, he needs yah now, Big **HUGS** from the OC.
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